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Post by candleAssassin on Mar 9, 2016 23:44:45 GMT -8
Roma
I chose to visit Spireguard in early Thirdmoon and join the party of adventurers there for a day. as I had been in Spireguard for a while beforehand, I had already gotten the chance to get to know some of the party. As of yet, no promising leads regarding my past have appeared, other than the one I discovered just before leaving. (Unfortunately I have a feeling I am finding connections where there are none.) but I digress. The first thing I did was travel to the shrine of Maat, goddess of truth, justice, and order. She is also the one who weighs hearts before the souls enter the afterlife. I was given a magic greatsword to take with me, and it is the most beautiful weapon I have ever seen. We aided some elves being attacked by ogres on the way, and I chose to wield my new sword while defending the shrine from war trolls. The defending of the shrine, my waiting to train as a paladin, and my donation of gold was enough sacrifice to train as a paladin of Maat, make a pact with her, and have my new sword blessed. I am now even more skilled in the areas I was already skilled at, and as much as I like to say I am not a weapon (for I am not), I will admit I am now perfect for punching the life back out of undead. I highly look forward to testing it. After returning, I chose to teach my sword more by bringing it with me on a mission to help another party member investigate a crime, as law enforcement fits well with my beliefs. I believe she has written a chronicle about the events of that mission, but suffice it to say I was very glad to have my sword along and ended up using it. The sword, which I have named Pious, was awakened relatively soon after that mission. I will not digress into how much I admire this weapon, but their spirit in the sword and I make a very good team, as it is able to revive me when I go down. Later in the day, I joined a group on a rescue mission into the Wild Wood to retrieve some other members of the party. I was eager to test Pious in action, along with my new skills, and both ended up benefitting me very much. Towards the end of the mission, we were attacked by strange creatures with oddly colored skin, horns instead if hair, and large, catlike eyes. Overall it was uneventful, but I will never forget the satisfaction of being dropped by one of these creatures, then revived by Pious at the perfect moment to strike the same creature in the back as it turned its attention elsewhere! At the time of writing this, I have not decided when to travel back to Shadowguard. However, with the events of this one day, I hope to stay a while and perhaps visit again in the future.
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Post by candleAssassin on Mar 19, 2016 22:31:13 GMT -8
19th of Thirdmoon Roma
I will start off by saying this chronicle will not have nearly as much bragging as the last.
After a day that included fighting through a large dungeon full of golems, just similar enough to me to be eerie (more about this later), I finally got that high level identify I have been working towards for so long. I learned a lot. I do not know what I was expecting. Maybe a name or a place, a clear lead I could follow. Instead I just amassed a bunch of little details about myself that answer some questions, only for them to be replaced with more.
I will start with the first thing I remember and work from there. Perhaps by the end of this I will have come up with more ideas than I have now.
I woke up in an inn in Shadowguard. I was in a room, one of the ones you could rent. Just sitting in a chair. I remember walking out and being attacked by the other customers rather than greeted. They had never seen me before, like I had not checked in. It was a seedier place, close to the docks. I remember hearing people talking outside and the river flowing by while I was still in the room.
I think I chose my name. To be honest, I have no idea whether that was my name before, or one given to me, or just something I came up with all on my own.
There were things I figured out about myself early on. I am made of a silver frame with detachable wooden parts. Cherry wood. Cherry heartwood. My face is probably one of the more golem-like aspects of myself. It looks like porcelain but moves like skin. The thing I had wondered most about is my hair. I knew it was real, but had assumed it was probably horse hair. More on that in a moment.
I cannot go any further without listing what I learned from the identify, so I will do just that.
In terms of crafting, I seem to be Amiri. There was clearly elder sorcery involved, and I was made like a magic item. I am a magic item. I was a mistake. I did not come out as my creator intended. I was not meant to be sentient, I was meant to serve a specific purpose. Guard a dungeon? Something else? I do not know.
I know now that I have been modified. I have suspected that is possible for a while, in fact just today I was driven mad by so many people suggesting modifications. That gives me three lives, in a sense; me, as I was before all this, me with my original creator, and this second person who modified me, though I remember none of this. Perhaps I did not work? Perhaps I did? What terrifies me is that there might be a way to reset my memory.
I must be worth thousands of gold, so maybe I was handed off as a prototype, or traded away? Stolen?
Regarding the modifications, my hands and arms are new. Whatever maker’s mark I originally had has been removed. There is more silver in my frame now than there was at first, especially in my knuckles. I have mentioned this before, but it seems like I did not get the idea about being built to fight undead out of nowhere.
My hair is also very, very interesting and confusing. As I said before, I knew it was real. One can tell. I thought maybe it was horse hair, like a wig or just an extra aesthetic detail. I now know it is entirely human. It is more than one person, Mainly Amiri, but also Dsesnorian and Temnorian. This explains the variation in color. The oldest hair is only about fifty years old, and I am younger than that.
I am left with so many questions. I look eleven, but it seems nothing else about me is. All of the golems in that dungeon were older than me, since I cannot be older than fifty, and they are more in the range of one hundred. Those golems are Amiri too, each unique, though even the small ones have the same odd flat feet like I do, and the same movement as I do (though more fluid, as I have joints and they are solid). Could I be related? Are they my brothers and sisters? Or am I just as close to them as one elf is to another? In that dungeon, Pious would wait until the party had been dropped and then revive me, so I could look around undisturbed. The golems seemed curious, and definitely confused, but I bowed to them and they curtsied and wandered off. (Not unlike my interactions with adventurers.) I have never liked the idea of being a golem, of being somehow lesser than the “living” races, but it seems I cannot escape that fact now. Why am I here? Why was I made? Who made me? Who was I? Does my creator, or anyone else from my past, care? Was I loved? Am I loved?
I am terrified by the idea that my memory could be erased, so I will likely chronicle as much as possible until I come to terms with this revelation. Now that I have begun to eke out my own purpose, I do not want to forget. I would never wish that feeling of loneliness and confusion on anyone, let alone on myself again.
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Post by candleAssassin on Mar 23, 2016 12:24:35 GMT -8
22nd of Thirdmoon Roma
I am back in Spireguard. Since waking up, I have not been a fan of inns. Though I know it is irrational, I go to bed every night wondering whether I will still be me when I wake up. Usually this... Fear is tolerable, but since getting identified I have been thinking about it more, which has not helped. I waited three days to even travel, and once I arrived, I paced outside the inn for a good ten minutes before going in. I tell people I am used to the exclusion, but I am not sure I really am. I could not work up the courage to go up the stairs, and settled for polite conversation until Mist responded rudely when I talked about what I had learned. "Whoops" is not the correct response. I will not make the same mistake of revealing such personal information again. Though, of course, I stopped at the top of the stairs and ended up in a discussion with Daine about what happened. Luckily she was much kinder about it than Mist was. I did not have the heart to pay attention to whether or not she was telling the truth when she said she thought Mist did care. I am tired of having to deal with constant questions and judgements. I am tired of people suggesting modifications to their friends as though I was not standing right next to them. I am tired of people asking if I am a tree, or calling me a doll, or calling me it, or a thing. I am tired of being treated as lesser because I am not made of flesh.
I have considered not writing down the bad events, but if I forget everything, I do not want a false view of my life.
What I do want is to meet my creator. I know that there is a possibility that I really was not wanted, but there is also a possibility that I was. At least that way I could get closure. And also have my (apparently modified) fist meet the face of whoever took the maker's mark from my arm and dumped me in that inn.
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Post by candleAssassin on Mar 29, 2016 22:46:39 GMT -8
Roma 29th of thirdmoon
I thought I had escaped that feeling of dread. I am so, so tired of it. "How do I know you're not evil?" Most of the adventurers I have met seem to be so much more accepting. I was ready to go through the entire list of negative confessions -which are said during the weighing of the heart ceremony- but the man in question was satisfied after the first. Is it just me, or is it getting worse? Or has it just not gotten any better? I am going to pray to Maat soon. Make a large sacrifice and hope for the best. My thought is that, having been made as a magic item, my soul has passed on once before. I am not sure if I followed Maat in the before life, but if I did, I hope that I could learn something of before-me. Who knows. It is not as though the various death-related gods of different pantheons meet for coffee every week. If I followed a different god in the before, this might all go to waste. I am nervous but I am looking forward to this. After all, the only guaranteed time I meet Maat is when I pass on. That is when I /will/ have to list off those negative confessions I have been sticking to so carefully.
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Post by candleAssassin on Apr 3, 2016 22:46:45 GMT -8
Gonna start condensing chronicles to twice a month! Expect to see more than one entry per post --- Roma 31st of Thirdmoon
I have yet to go to the shrine. One could say I am putting off doing this, though I am not sure why. Perhaps I am nervous about what I may discover. Perhaps I am nervous about making such a large sacrifice with the risk of not getting any information at all. I think I need closure, however, so I will continue with my plan. Last night I was in the inn. I spoke to Stitches, the dwarf with an interest in the dead. I am not sure how I feel about him. His skills are certainly valuable, and it seems he has had similar experiences as I have, but his lack of respect for the dead deeply bothers me. ... Roma 3rd of Fourthmoon
I have not committed sin. I have not committed robbery with violence. I have not stolen. I have not slain men and women. I have not uttered lies. I have not carried away food. I have not uttered curses. I have not committed adultery. I have made none to weep. I have not grieved uselessly, or felt remorse. I have not attacked any man without just cause. I am not a woman of deceit. I have not stolen cultivated land. I have not been an eavesdropper. I have slandered no man. I have not been angry without just cause. I have not polluted myself. I have terrorized none. I have not transgressed the Law. I have not shut my ears to the words of truth. I have not blasphemed. I am not a woman of violence. I am not a stirrer up of strife or a disturber of the peace. I have not acted or judged with undue haste. I have not pried into matters. I have not multiplied my words in speaking. I have not committed treason. I have never stopped the flow of water. I have never raised my voice in anger or arrogance. I have not acted with evil rage. I have not snatched away the bread of the child, nor treated with contempt the god of my city. I have wronged none, I have done no evil.
I am surrounded by irony. I went to the shrine. I made my sacrifice. Those sentences, listed above, proved of use to me. All of them should be true. But now I am not sure. They had some effect, that I can be certain of. I prayed for information about my soul, hoping for something from the before. I am not sure if that is what I got when the priest conveyed the vision. Before this, I had thought about how I may have brothers and sisters. Now I abhor the thought. I left that shrine feeling heavyhearted. [the following section has been torn out/omitted] ~~~~~~ [omitted section ends here] "How do I know you're not evil?" Those words ring in my ears. One of my... Owners, whether the first or the second, was a truly vile person. My goal remains: find out which, meet them, and have my fist meet their face.
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Post by candleAssassin on Apr 18, 2016 10:15:01 GMT -8
Roma 16th of Fourthmoon
I am back in shadowguard yet again. I keep considering going back to the golem dungeon, but I think I need to search elsewhere for more information. I find myself having trouble continuing the search. How is it that no matter what I do, things seem to get worse every time? Now that I think about it, there was that idea of there being more like me. If that is true, they should be stopped. Saved, even. ... Ressie 16th of Fourthmoon [note: all nouns, yes, ALL, are capitalized to mimic an earlier English writing style]
Finally! Free at long Last. I'm in Shadowgard now. I don't miss Prison at all! (Especially since I shouldn't have been there in the first Place.) Already I'm off to a fantastic, fresh Start. You see, I'm buying a Ship of my own. I feel like a real Businesswoman now, because, curse me, I even bought Insurance for the Thing. And I've made a Friend here. Wanted me to call him Aster. He's a curious One for sure, but I know my Place and won't spill any Secrets he wants kept. Anyway, once I secure a Ship of my own, likely a simple Frigate (three Masts, average Quality, as you know), I'll still need a Crew. Of course, I've already gotten a Half-Dozen Applications for Positions. Time will tell whether any of the Candidates are actually deserving of a Place on my Ship. For Example, I have yet to meet anyone who's a fair Choice for Quartermaster. That's an important Spot in the Ranks, one I need to fill with Someone I trust. My Guess is I'll come across a Candidate later, but hopefully soon, because I need to pay that Insurance, /and/ my Investor. After All, who'd pay anything if they're not receiving?
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Post by candleAssassin on May 9, 2016 20:33:12 GMT -8
Roma 20th of Fourthmoon 25. I have not acted or judged with undue haste. My head is spinning as I think about how I came to be in this situation. I need to think over everything before I go any further. [rest has been omitted] … Roma 28th of Fourthmoon I spoke to stitches. This situation makes me nervous. 25. I have not pried into matters. This means not to be nosy, does it not? I have a right to know where I came from. [omitted section] … Roma 8th of Fifthmoon 28. I have never stopped the flow of water. I traveled with the party up to Sweetsprings to help out after the storms. There was an injured hydra under a large amount of debris in the river, bleeding into the water and making it burn away people’s flesh (though, luckily, it did no such thing to my hand.) Now that it has been cleared, the waters are beginning to purify again. Celeste adventured with us today. It was nice to talk to someone I am so close with. She also truly reassured me about many of the things I was worried about before. She thinks I am a wonderful person. I think she is pretty wonderful too. [one sentence, scribbled out quite vigorously]
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Post by candleAssassin on May 23, 2016 21:02:06 GMT -8
Roma 21st of Fifthmoon Dark heroes. As well as I am equipped to fight them, I would be much happier without having to deal with them. There was also the lab of a wizard being investigated, including a golem guarding something within, but I believe it is not related to my past. The friend who first identified me has offered to do so again at a higher level. I may agree. ... Ressie 21st of Fourthroom I finally hired a Crew for the Jackrabbit. I had to wait on Sailing until the Day was done, unfortunately, as the other Party Members decided it would be a better use of Time to hunt undead Dark Heroes instead. A real Shame, since I didn’t get to help the Party hunt any Geb Pirates, and Scavenging got me short of Nothing. Hopefully Ein Ion will have better Luck in store for me when I visit later.
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Post by candleAssassin on May 31, 2016 9:47:06 GMT -8
28th of Fifthmoon Ressie
I sailed to Spireguard after hearing about an Issue with Pirates. I was excited to take the Jackrabbit out on a real Mission, but I’m sad to say it didn’t work out. That’s what happens when the Party picks an Individual to go after rather than keeping their Teammates up and fighting. Tis a real Shame, since I won’t be back to sail around those parts for a While again. Double Shame, since I was the only one who chose to stay behind after being ransomed back. Everyone else on the Mission, including my Investor and a new Friend, went back into the Fray. Naturally, none of them had returned before I set out to head back Home. Here’s hoping I hear from them again, I want to know what was keeping them.
… 29th of Fifthmoon Roma
25. I have not pried into matters. Is it too risky to investigate my past? Yes, I am concerned about literal risk - to myself and others. I am also concerned about the weight of my heart once all of this is over. At least this past weekend had some good - we were able to destroy multiple Morgoth shrines. Balance is being restored. [the rest is omitted]
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Post by candleAssassin on Sept 6, 2016 10:20:04 GMT -8
Kevin Roma is not interested, thank you though!
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Post by candleAssassin on Sept 6, 2016 10:22:20 GMT -8
-Insert vague time stamp here, pre-timejump but too lazy to get the date rn- Roma
I regret not chronicling for a while, but I have been busy and/or unable to for various reasons. Primarily that I had been captured and was not...available. If you have questions about what happened to me during that time, please contact me in person.
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